Nott What You'd Expected...

Back in the DSM.... for now

Colorado rocked my world. for several reasons. First and foremost, I remember why I love Luther and why I love being a part of a team. The emotions I feel right now are so conflicted that I really can't predict how I'll react to being away for so long.



Camping for a week with 30 awesome guys, 4 of whom are brand new, reinvigorated me- both my drive to run and train harder and my ties to Luther. How can I just walk away after two great years to be alone (not entirely alone) in another country while so much will be going on here? It's a bittersweet feeling to have teammates tell me how jealous they are of opportunity but at the same time turn around and rile everybody up about how great the season is. I don't know how I would react to a teammate leaving for a year-- both Franzen and Thor have done similar trips and both have returned without a hitch, but it's still intimidating to know that after Sept 10th (depending on my summer plans) I may not see our seniors again, and may not see my own Norse teammates until the next colorado trip.

It's not productive to feel sorry for myself, and that's not really what this feels like. It's more of a reflective, half-wanting to stay that I would imagine most people feel when they know they're about to leave for a period of time. It's hard to take advantage of ever second still in the states, but if i had my way, i'd be in Decorah until the second the plane took off.

Pre-abroad jitters, i'll call it. cold feet maybe. Right now the biggest problem is that i have jack shit to do while the team practices together, and other friends leave. Next week will suck when i'm the only one left, but hopefully marathon shifts at KTC and Quizno's will take my attention away from the countdown until Beloit, Luther, and eventually Nottingham.

To Do List before nottingham:

-call Mary, the friendly Visa lady
-figure out housing for sr. year
-pack.... alot
-cell phone for abroad
-loans. loans. more loans.


whew. kind of an emotional post- not emotional so much as self-pittying. i'll get over it. Nottingham in less than three weeks. Let's do the damn thang.

shout outs to John and Zach, who have already experienced this kind of feeling, and to everyone who i won't see for a while....

posted by Kevin @ 8:36 PM