Seemingly Seamless.
I've done the undo-able. Letting reactions slip by, experiences become forgotten, and thoughts lost in the torrent of familiarity and calls back to a life left for dead.
In unexaggerated terms, I let it slide. My entries post-re-entry were supposed to be the culmination of the year- a conclusion written in response to 205 UK-drenched posts that consumed my time abroad. And instead, I've given up on the blog. Left it for dead- rotting in the cesspool that is the online blogging community after revelation has occurred and the blog no longer has the same meaning it once held.
How many countless millions of sites exist in the blogosphere that are unused- like the lonely LazyBoys that litter the streets on trash week.
It's almost sad.
No more. From hereon in, I re-dedicate myself to entry, reflection, and all that it encompasses. For now, I'll do a quick recap, not unlike the recaps that flooded in during certain monthlong holidays this year that resulted in lackluster entries and mindblowing pictures.
Save for the lack of mindblowing pictures, here is a US-version of those undetailed, spastic entries: Think of it as Ray from Rain Man, translating my every cognitive thought over the past two weeks----
- kids at work- honest, brutally honest- "Mr Kevin, you have hair under your arms...Mr Kevin, you have a big nose....Mr Kevin, we can see your underwear....Mr Kevin, our parents failed in raising us to be proper human beings.... Mr Kevin...."
-friends at home- could I be hanging out with a more random group(S) of people? not random in the sense that they are crazy (which they are) or random in the sense that they are odd, but random in the sense that I could never picture one group of them meeting the other group. Not that they wouldn't get along, but it's like when George Costanza in Seinfeld collapses when Elaine starts hanging out with his fiance, Susan. "A George, divided in itself, cannot stand"--- they would get along, sure, but they represent very different Kevins. I enjoy it. Makes me feel busy and multifaceted.
- Re entry has been seemingly seamless (hence the title).... as if I never left- it gets old saying that, but it's true.... Seeing Dechorites again, living the XC life for a weekend was incredible, and gave me HUGE confidence for next year- a feeling of reaffirmed excitement -- the feeling that yes, Nottingham was right, and yes, I will be back and better than ever. I loved my time there, I love it here (especially after seeing them again), and I'm feeling good about things.
Talking to Knirps on the phone in passing the other day also made me think. As much as I love talking about the UK-- as much as people equally are getting sick of it-- and as awkward and annoying as each identical question "HOW WAS IT?" is, sometimes all it takes is the right person in the right situation to ask it, and new ideas or feelings inside are revealed. Sounds deep, and maybe it is... but it's true.... so, I guess, as annoying as it feels sometimes, ask away....
-Another Job. I need one. badly. No Quiznos this time. Fastfood is over in my life. I'm a 20-something now. time to call it quits. So it's looking like a coffee place.
So here goes- a weekend to unpack from Notts, get a new job, and hang with people I have yet to see.
posted by Kevin @ 2:49 AM
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